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Friday, 7 December 2007
Am I Changed? @ 1:48 pm
ahas! annyoung everyone! welcome! :D
am i changed?
the trust between humans and i indeed weakened. why? after the 4 of them did that to me, i have really seen through how could a human behave. it's really too scary! i am so frightened now. for the past few weeks, i have been reading their blogs. you know what makes me even wanna laugh at them? ever since i was out from them, whenever they blog about GFs, they quoted their names out. knowing that i will definitely read. maybe it's just me, i think they are out to spike me. am i that childish to get angry?
sometimes i felt, why is it has to happen when i am going to have a good ending? why? i am so so hurt by this friendship! yesterday, watching kang xi lai le, show luo was the guest. he said, " how can u live without friends?" it's true. however, to me, now, i dont know whether can i still believe in friends. are humans out there just to cheat on my feelings by gaining my trust and then, damage it drastically in the end?
have i done something so wrong to them that they have to treat me like this? it's really so hurt. i hated them for that moment. now, i think i still hate them. i dont hate people easily. but they had forced me to hate. first time in my life, i hated my friends. one of them actually was my very best friend that i cant live without. am i being too trustful?
she replied my letter before i left for HK trip. i realised what she wrote is like i did not do them. i dont know where did she heard from or why does she wrote all this. but the contents in that mail just let my heart sank deeply. i called ying for help. she told me alot. i thank her for helping. she even told me that ever since that incident was over, she wanted to say hello to me. but i was with my friends so she did not do that. she said she did not blame me after that. i told her likewise.
now, i dont know whether i actually hate them anot. however, everytime i think of what happened, i simply couldnt forgive them. hais~ i dont know why my world has become such a mess. i hate myself!
i want to create a world of honesty! i hate fakers, hyprocrites!
do the 4 of them even know that they have destroy part of my world and my beliefs? guess, they are laughing at my state now.
the trust between humans and i indeed weakened. why? after the 4 of them did that to me, i have really seen through how could a human behave. it's really too scary! i am so frightened now. for the past few weeks, i have been reading their blogs. you know what makes me even wanna laugh at them? ever since i was out from them, whenever they blog about GFs, they quoted their names out. knowing that i will definitely read. maybe it's just me, i think they are out to spike me. am i that childish to get angry?
sometimes i felt, why is it has to happen when i am going to have a good ending? why? i am so so hurt by this friendship! yesterday, watching kang xi lai le, show luo was the guest. he said, " how can u live without friends?" it's true. however, to me, now, i dont know whether can i still believe in friends. are humans out there just to cheat on my feelings by gaining my trust and then, damage it drastically in the end?
have i done something so wrong to them that they have to treat me like this? it's really so hurt. i hated them for that moment. now, i think i still hate them. i dont hate people easily. but they had forced me to hate. first time in my life, i hated my friends. one of them actually was my very best friend that i cant live without. am i being too trustful?
she replied my letter before i left for HK trip. i realised what she wrote is like i did not do them. i dont know where did she heard from or why does she wrote all this. but the contents in that mail just let my heart sank deeply. i called ying for help. she told me alot. i thank her for helping. she even told me that ever since that incident was over, she wanted to say hello to me. but i was with my friends so she did not do that. she said she did not blame me after that. i told her likewise.
now, i dont know whether i actually hate them anot. however, everytime i think of what happened, i simply couldnt forgive them. hais~ i dont know why my world has become such a mess. i hate myself!
i want to create a world of honesty! i hate fakers, hyprocrites!
do the 4 of them even know that they have destroy part of my world and my beliefs? guess, they are laughing at my state now.
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Am I Changed? @ 1:48 pm 
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